I am watching too much porn

I am a guy who watch a lot of porn. On top of that I also date London escorts. Quite a few of the London escorts say that I watch too much porn and it has given me a warped view of sex. It is possibly true and most of my girlfriends say that I am oversexed, or ” over porned”. The truth is that I know that I am a porn junkie but I haven’t as yet found a way to overcome my porn addiction. I can’t really talk to my parents about it as they are quite strict Christians. To them it is wrong to enjoy porn.

It would be nice to change my lifestyle but I am convinced my porn fascination has to do with my strict religious upbringing. When I was a little boy we never talked about sex at home and my first contact with sex was through the world of porn. A couple of the London escorts that I date say that this is what has made me so addicted. I could watch porn movies with my London escorts all day, it is a sad life really. Outside this world I have very little human contact.

I have tried having girlfriends, but I can’t get intimate with a girl without watching porn. Like I say to my London escorts dates, I need the girl to watch the movie and then I want us to replicate what happened in the movie. Most girls will not do that and I find that hard to understand. My London escorts girls totally understand where they are coming from and say that it isn’t foreplay, It is just porn and may not even turn a woman on. Romance and foreplay will turn a woman on but I have never experienced that.

One of the things I have a thing about is kissing. I never kiss, my parents did not kiss and nobody in the porn movies that I watch kiss. Kissing to me is totally alien and does not turn me. The London escorts that I date say that most women like to kiss and would probably not have sex with me unless I kiss them. It is really frustrating for me and I feel that I am trapped in a vicious circle. It is really only the London escorts who understand where I am coming from but say I need to change.

In recent months a lot of my London escort girlfriends at this site have said that I need therapy. Apparently there are a couple of sex counselors around London who used to work as London escorts. The girls have all said that they would probably understand my addiction and would be able to help me. The thing is, I like my addiction and would be reluctant to let go. What would happen to my porn library and all my hot magazines? I would not want to give them up as they bring a lot of pleasure and even comfort. To me, being able to watch and read porn is the same as love.